2017. A year where my life got turned on it’s head, shaken around a bit, and placed back nicely where it belonged. A bit like a snow globe, just less elegant and pretty. I went from living in a harmonious university bubble to being up at 5.30am, commuting into London to a job I didn’t enjoy and making it back at 6.30pm, showering, eating then bed, A.K.A. a place where my happiness, positivity and mental health nosedived. This post will be one for not just you to read, but me too. It’s somewhere for me to come back to and remind myself that the worst has been and gone, and I’m on route to a happier me.
In one year, put very very simply, this is how my life played out…
I went to the gym everyday, I spent time with my uni friends of 4 years, I lived with my boyfriend, I had time for my blog, I had time for my YouTube, I completed my Masters degree, I no longer lived with my boyfriend, I no longer saw my uni friends of 4 years, I moved back home, I got myself a job in central London, I had no time for the gym, no time for my blog, no time for my YouTube, I quit my job in central London, I got a new job that’s local, I gave myself time for my blog, I gave myself time for YouTube and gave myself time to be happy.
See the rollercoaster? The majority of the above happened from September – December. 4 of the hardest months I’ve ever had to go through. But I’m out the other side and ready for a happier me. For a long time, I felt like a failure with not being able to cope or enjoy a full time job in London that was very different to what I imagined. I’ve never had to deal with being a failure before but that’s for another post.
This year is going to be the one. Full of positivity, memories, good people and FUN. Here are my resolutions for 2018 that will all work towards those four goals.
Since leaving university and working full time in London, I had no time or spare money to go the gym. I’m pretty sure I’ve gained a dress size. I tried not to think about it because, at the time there was nothing I could do. But now I have the time to change and that includes loosing the weight I’ve put on.
Exercise is ridiculously good for my mental health and gives me an hour every day to refresh the browser and close all tabs in my mind that have been left open for way too long. I may even fall into the trap of buying an exercise guide just to give me that extra support and motivation. If you have any recommendations (that’s not Kayla Istines) leave them below! Maybe Grace Fit Guide?
Part of getting fit and feeling healthy will involve a cut down on the amount of crap I eat. It’s a little ridiculous and was part of the whole downward spiral I had late 2017, bad food was, and still is, comforting. But there needs to be a balance. One cheat day a week is how I used to do it at uni. It’s possible, I’ve done it before. So that’s my dose of I’M EATING WHATEVER THE HELL I WANT.
With my new job, comes new windows of opportunities. I’ll have new pockets of time in my week to spend on creating content and, in order to do so efficiently, I need a schedule of some sort. It’s hard to decide what that schedule will be without starting my job just yet, but I’ll be creating one very soon which will hopefully result in more posts, photos and videos.
Ever since I started YouTube, all people have ever really wanted to see are vlogs. I’ve been aware of this from the very beginning. I like to put out on my channel what I would like to see from someone else. And the things I will always watch over anything else (unless it’s dan and phil or sophia and cinzia) are VLOGS.
SO. I haven’t really ‘announced’ this anywhere yet, so cheeky exclusive for you loyal readers who are still actually with me, I’ll be uploading WEEKLY VLOGS again…well sorta. They’ll be starting on a Thursday (I finish work at 1 on both Thursday and Friday) and ending on a Sunday. 4 days worth of footage put into one video. I can’t. Wait.
For those who are familiar with my life and the people in it, you’ll know who Matt is and what he means to me. Matt’s my boyfriend of nearly 5 years, and our ‘living together journey’ (wtf have I just said) is actually quite hilarious. Met in halls, kitchens next to each other and practically lived under each others feet for the first year with everyone else (roughly 10 others), second and third year at university lived in a house together with 4 others, Masters year, we lived together just us 2 in a flat…then moved out and are now living an hour and a half away from each other, with jobs and with our parents. I MEAN.
It genuinely seemed as if we’d taken a huge step back in our relationship. It was weird, it still is weird. But we’re both working and saving money to move out and live in a place where we can have all the cats and fun meals and spontaneous outings (think of the moving and decorating vlogs ok).
Social media for me, is a constant source of inspiration. The gift that keeps on giving. I get countless ideas about particular shoots, trips away, places to go, things to see. But actually putting them into action is something I struggle with. NOT THIS YEAR. If a pop up cool exhibition comes on a Tate Modern, I’m there. If a random food festival arrives with things I’ve always wanted to try, I’m in. If there’s cheap theatre tickets on offer, I’m already sat in the stalls with sweets and wine, ready for the ice cream interval.
I’ve always been a bit “I’d rather shop on ASOS” when it comes to charity shops. I’ll admit it, I was a little stuck up about the whole thing and I HATE that I was. But this year, I’m ready to hunt down all the absolute bargains (particularly because I’m saving to move out and LIVE) and finding unique, one off pieces that I will TREASURE.
I always add to my new years resolutions as time goes on, so really, in the end, there’s nothing ‘new years’ about them. But I’ll be sure to update you on my life goals in a few months I’m sure. Here’s praying by that time, I’m a happier, more content human being. I’m gonna come back to this post from time to time to remind myself that I’m over one of the worst periods of my life, and that these are my goals to get me back on track.